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Continue reading →: The trauma continues
The hardest part about losing Rodney wasn’t just losing my husband. It was losing the life we were building. It was watching people I thought would always be there slowly disappear. It was learning that some people will smile to your face while talking about you behind your back. It…
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Continue reading →: Chapter 45 starts here
The Birthday I Never Expected I turned 45 this week. If you had asked me years ago what 45 would look like, I guarantee this wasn’t it. I wouldn’t have imagined spending most of a three-day birthday weekend alone. I wouldn’t have imagined sitting on the couch staring at the…
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Continue reading →: I miss my home
Today, I was working and processing files while on a Teams call with a coworker. We weren’t really talking much. I was just focused on my work and lost in my thoughts. And then, without even meaning to, I said it out loud. “I miss my home.” The moment the…
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Continue reading →: When Grief Knocks the Wind Out of You Again
Life has felt very slow lately. Last week I received some news I had been waiting on, and while it wasn’t necessarily bad news, it came with a lot more waiting and uncertainty. Since then, my anxiety has been running high and I’ve felt emotionally drained. The sourdough starter is…
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Continue reading →: Some Memorial Days Hurt More Than Others
Memorial Day felt different this year. I had the day off work, but instead of feeling rested, I spent most of the day alone and carrying a heaviness that I couldn’t seem to shake. Between starting a new job and having Rodney’s anniversary approaching, everything felt harder than I expected.…
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Continue reading →: Because Apparently I Needed Another Hobby
Because clearly I didn’t have enough going on already. I’m starting a new job, taking care of Biscotti, taking care of five cats, trying to remember to take care of myself, keeping flowers alive, tending to a sourdough starter that seems determined to test my patience… and now I’ve decided…
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Continue reading →: Because Apparently I Needed Another Thing to Keep Alive
As if grief, missing Rodney, and starting a new job weren’t enough, I decided it was the perfect time to start something else too—a sourdough starter. Maybe it sounds a little crazy, but I needed something to focus on. Something that required patience, consistency, and a little bit of faith.…
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Continue reading →: Planting New Life After Loss
A week after Rodney’s second anniversary, I needed something different to focus on. I decided to take my mom to a few nurseries and hardware stores, and we spent the day looking at flowers, vegetables, and herbs. I picked out flowers for both my front yard and backyard, along with…
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Continue reading →: How Can It Be Two Years Already?
Today marks two years since Rodney passed away. I honestly don’t know how two years have gone by already. In some ways it feels impossible that it’s been that long, and in other ways it feels like I’ve lived an entire lifetime since that day. The day was hard. Really…
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